Machinery Behind Addiction
Today was my third day in the 12-week treatment program, and I felt like a few of the pieces started to fall into place. Not the emotional part, that one’s been loud for years, but the biological part. The mechanical part.
A glimpse into the bottle
Welcome to Bottle Diaries, where I share tales and poems from an alcoholic. This blog is an insight into my experiences with addiction. My hope is that family, friends, and fellow alcoholics gain a better understanding through my writing.
No action is needed, just have more insight only.
Bending the truth
There’s a voice in me
Understanding the Biology Behind Why We Drink
Today was the second day of my 12-week program, and for the first time in a long time, I felt like I wasn’t just “a person with a problem.”I was a person with a system, a brain, a history, genetics, stress responses, memories, all interacting in a way that explains why alcohol became my escape, my reward, and eventually my prison.
Captain High Noon
I was born with restless feetand a bottle hidden in my shadow.Every road I walkedwas just another way of leaving myself behind.
Tide of the Broken Days
There are seasons to my downfall,a tide that knows my name.It rises in the quiet hourswhen no one’s watching,when the world stops demandingand my mind starts whispering.
Way of life
I walked the long streets with a bottle in my hand,pretending every swallow was strengthand not surrender.
Blood you can't afford
They all want something a piece of me,a promise,a future I can’t keep steady.
The Fight Within
I’ve thrown fists at the world,but the worst blowswere always the ones I aimed at myself.
The Space Inside
It doesn’t happen with thunder.
Still Time
They’re six and nine,
When the Fire Turned to Light
I used to chase the burn,
Freedom Begins
I went to my first 12-step meeting today.
Understanding addiction
My blog focuses primarily on the theme of addiction, offering a personal perspective on the challenges, struggles, and moments of clarity that come with it. Through my stories and poems, I aim to shed light on the realities of alcoholism.
For family and friends
This blog is also for the family and friends of those struggling with alcoholism. My goal is to provide insight and understanding, fostering empathy and connection. Perhaps my experiences can help you better support your loved ones.
Insight only
Ultimately, I hope my readers gain a deeper understanding of what it's like to be an alcoholic. My intention is not to solicit advice or action, but to simply share my experiences and offer a glimpse into the complex world of addiction.
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